You have to get out of those negative habits, negative behavior, all of it, once and for all. Now there is a breakthrough. Now use this momentum to really rise. You realize the wrong way to think, to act, to react, but seeing that is not enough. Don’t focus on it. You underline the negative aspects about yourself until you feel so miserable that you cannot function. You can look at yourself with all honesty and with humility make the changes. Think, “How can I serve? How can I smile more? Who can I give love to? Who can I help?” Then automatically, before you know it, these negative ways are gone. With a little effort your light can really shine. Always react with love. Think of the other person. Consider all aspects.